Still Waiting

Saturday, July 05, 2008

i'm kind of worried right now..

i wonder how would life be when i enter university. life in hostel, life without any of my buddies(g6+guys) around..

and what's worse is, i wonder how can we spend time on meeting up in future already. we've had problems on meeting up on a regular basis even though it means just a saturday in the week which we're all so familiar with. but not much of us is willing to organise the saturday outing, and i'm so tired of it. i'm afraid when i enter nie, i'll meet new friends and i'll forsake the ones i have because not much of us is willing to commit and sacrifice some things so that we can meet up on time or even manage to meet up and spend time together.

i'm not looking for quality time to spend together since it would not happen in a big group. what i want is that we can try to keep saturdays free so that we can simply spend time to bond together. i never want to lose all of you as my friends and i wish we'll be best mates even till we're married with children. i still want all of you as my closest social circle.

is that too much to ask for?

is sacrificing some sleep or time too difficult to do for our friendship?

when is our PJs night?

when will we have another super fun chalet again? i'm so looking forward to it.. but i'm afraid that i'm looking forward to nothing.

maybe i shouldn't think too much. maybe i'll make friends in uni such that my saturdays are always occupied. maybe i'll have to eat back my own words and be busy on saturdays. just maybe.

tomorrow would most prolly be the last saturday i can spend with my best mates before i enter nie already.

i guess things will become a gradual separation again.

is chang yu's words for cailing's birthday note going to stand strong, that they've proved me wrong by still cherishing these friendship even though we're all scattered? i'd rather lose face and be proven wrong than to have stated a fact and lose these precious friendships.

oh god, am i looking too much into things?

-when are you coming back? ;